I opened up my Bible this morning to pick up where I had left off yesterday during my time with Jesus. Instead of moving on I grinned at God’s irony and reread the same passage as I had the day before full-knowing I was not quite ready to move on from all He could teach me in these words.
“His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness.” ~2 Peter 1.3
Trying to marinate and digest: Everything I need for life and godliness. Everything I could ever need. Ever. God has given me everything I ever needed through my knowledge of Him, His Son Jesus Christ, who has called me by His glory and goodness. I am already complete and there is nothing else in this life I could obtain or have already in me or with me that would aid this, replace this, etc.
My last day of work was the day before, my position was eliminated and all for a praise-worthy cause I might add. And that said with all sarcasm aside. I think it is nothing short of the hand of God where this passage lie on that very morning. God has already given me everything. It isn’t in a job or a paycheck, the shelter of my home or the security I have in my husband. Not the body I live in, the clothes I wear, the car I drive and certainly not in my social status.
Unemployment is nonetheless devastating. The second day I read that very passage of all God has already given me I was standing in line outside the unemployment office two hours before it opened.
How could I not grin? My life is not over. I did not die. God is still for me.
I have hope. And my hope is not in a job where I am always expendable. Always. I am to work and work hard, work well and finish well. But this is not where I place my hope. This is not my identity.
“His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness. 4 Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature and escape the corruption in the world caused by evil desires.
5 For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; 6 and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; 7 and to godliness, brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness, love. 8 For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. 9 But if anyone does not have them, he is nearsighted and blind, and has forgotten that he has been cleansed from his past sins.
10 Therefore, my brothers, be all the more eager to make your calling and election sure. For if you do these things, you will never fall, 11 and you will receive a rich welcome into the eternal kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.” ~2 Peter 1.3-11
As I continued on through the passage I was humbled how much growing I need to do. I have not yet arrived. In fact I am much closer to the starting line than not. I am complete because I am in Christ, but I have not yet been made perfect since I am still living this side of heaven.
Work. There is work to be done in me. And not for merit or favor or to gain favoritism in anyone’s eyes especially the Lord’s. But because it is commanded to strive to possess such qualities in a growing and expanding manner so that I will not be hopeless and fruitless in knowing the One who gives Life. He is my life. And after Him I will go.
I will continue to pursue a new position, pray for what God wants me to do now and ask for His best for me. With or without a job my prayer will be that the Holy Spirit does not stop working on me, I have only yet begun. That He would please bring up fruit from faith, goodness and knowledge. Sprout the seeds that have been planted of self-control, perseverance and godliness. Water the soil where the seedlings of brotherly kindness and love are sowed.
From where I stand I can only see the tangled mess of knots with colors that don’t match and the impossibility of a pattern whatsoever.
But God sees and knows the finished work He will carry out. He sees and knows the big picture of our lives and the finished product of a beautifully made and perfectly-knit tapestry.
I have not yet arrived. But I have everything I ever needed.